rants: college & sarah jessica parker

I'm feeling absolutely hopeless.
I really got my hopes up about Lewis & Clark. But their financial aid award is about 20,000 dollars less than I can afford. Seriously. 100% demonstrated need my butt. My family hasn't been making ends meet for three years. How the hell do you expect me to be able to afford that much?
Hampshire's package isn't much better. And I had given up on Warren Wilson already.

So basically I have no options. I'm still considering applying to Portland State, but they take six to eight weeks to reach an admission decision.

I refuse to go to the U of A. I know how much of an asshole I sound like, but I would rather not go to college. At least not next year. I can't keep living here. I know I'm going to hate it. Everyone I've talked to this year (the real people, not the creepy creep fellows) has told me how much they regret staying here. And it hasn't gotten any better, not for this entire year. I have to go somewhere else. I don't even care what I do. I have to get out.

Second:
They're making, or I guess I should say they've made, a sequel to the Sex in the City movie. The first one dragged on for nearly three hours. I never saw it, but fans and non-fans of the series both told me it was excruciatingly dull and lacked the charm of the TV version.

It is beyond me why they feel the need to make another one. I am so tired of these women. Yeah, yeah. You like clothes and you're bad a relationships only now you're old. No one cares. It's all crass and tacky and pretend-witty. Seriously.

Sarah Jessica Parker needs to move on to mature roles. Or perhaps just out of show business.

I can't believe this is how I occupy my time.

I've had better days.

quickie

A review of good things from the past few days:

-duckies, Penelope & Franklin
-http://www.shop.sheandhim.com/
-OFFICIAL INVITE TO A LUNCHEON WITH SAPPHIRE
-first banjo lesson in over three weeks, tales of Warren Wilson, and a free copy of Clarke Buehling - Out of his Gourd: Early American Gourd Banjo Instrumentals and Songs (FOUR STARS)
-I won a prom ticket and shirt and only spent $1
-Saba and I are both going to prom with Tyler Ss.
-after being crushed for five minutes upon news of my dream dress being sold THAT SAME DAY from cheap thrills, I found a beigey-peach lacy thing that I tried on. And it fit. Perfectly. And it was half the price of the other one. And the there's pale pink ribbon on the bottom which means I CAN WEAR MY JACKIE KENNEDY HAT TO PROM.
-I received the Alpha Phi Alpha scholarship. Which is a black fraternity.


Polly wolly doodle.

shock & awe

I've been meaning to update for a bit, and haven't found the time. But I suppose this is an event worth bloggin about.

I will be one of the four student speakers at the FHS Graduation Class of 2010.

wat.

Seriously, I can't wrap my head around it. I mean, I know it's not life changing news or anything, but I've certainly never spoken a word in front of that many people, let alone sung, alone. (This is how I begin. Oh yeah. I went there.) I am honored to have been selected. It really is one of those things I'll always remember. There were way more girls than guys, and I went up against a lot of intelligent ladies. And gentlemen. But I'm the only female. It's totally surreal. I don't think I'll really get used to the idea until May 20th.

Which is all too soon and too far away all at once.

In other news, Summer of Solutions is alive and thriving. On Saturday, Sabz, Joel, Amanda, and I weeded the garlic patch at OMNI. And yesterday about 10 of us joined Mr. Steven Skattebo (who is terrific) to pick up pine cones and plant potatoes. It was messy and fun, and an exciting taste of what's to come. I grow more excited every day (just as our little rootlings grow up from the ground. I'm sorry, I totes could not resist).

I swear to the god of Itunes and twitter (HEY MICHELLE LOOK)that I will post Spring Break Fashion aysap. But at the moment, I must do some chem and practice for the Ramay Forensics demonstration tomorrow.

BEST NEWS OF THE WHOLE DAY: SAPPHIRE (as in Precious based on the novel PUSH BY SAPPHIRE)is coming to the library. Which remains exciting, but not news. HOWEVER, Saba informed me today that SAPPHIRE is having a special invite-only writer's conference after her public talk. And the creative writing classes are going. AND MAYBE LITMAG IS ALSO INVITED. AS IN WE GET TO MEET SAPPHIRE.
In the words of Banah, "Maybe I should actually read Push first, or see Precious." Still the best news of the day.

Since turning 18, I have not yet used my new powers. I have not purchased OxyClean from the new NOT Billy Mays TV guy, porn, a shotgun, or cigs, although I definitely considered it at the gas station the other day. But this Friday, I am going to my first real A Good Fight show at George's (real meaning I'm not crouching in the corner backstage or standing at the front door). And then HEARTLESS BASTARDS are playing FO' FREE on Sunday. I CANNOT WAIT.

Oh. And I got my "I can vote now" card in the mail the other day. Hooray.

Life is good. Except for always busy. But it's still good.